>> February 3, 2011
It happened yesterday morning and I want to document this for myself although I know I'll never forget it. Because of uncertain personal circumstances, I had tossed and turned the past couple of nights. Thursday morning, after returning to bed around 4:30 I finally fell asleep. The dream was typical and discombobulated but at the end I walked into my kitchen and looked down at something on the floor consciously asking why it was on the floor. I looked up and my mother came through the doorway and began walking toward me. (My mom passed a couple of weeks ago after a brief illness)
I immediately and consciously realized that she was dead, but I was so excited to see her! She was in her mid 40's and I remember what she wore. I said "mama" several times as we came toward one another. She had a peaceful, happy smile - not too broad. Her eyes were bright and smiling. Smiling eyes. The odd thing was that as we came face to face I remember consciously thinking that her face was completely smooth - like a baby's skin. There wasn't one single wrinkle but I knew her age was mid 40's. (She was 82 when she passed)
As I came to her I had my arms out and so did she. I asked if I could touch her or would I not be able to. That's when, even though her smiling expression never changed and she never spoke, I was told, "sure go ahead and touch me". I touched her arms and was so happy because I could feel real arms! We began to hug and I woke up.
When I woke up my heart was pounding but after about 30 seconds I had a total feeling of happiness, peace, and calm.
Later in the morning I called my sister to tell her about the dream and when I said I had a REAL contact "dream" with our mother, she was totally shocked. Anne, my sister, is the executor and is dealing with quite a bit of stuff right now. She said that last night as she poured over paperwork, she expressed out loud that she'd just like to know that everything will be fine, that mama is truly in a better place now, without pain. She said that she didn't expect a direct sign - that would be a little cheesy. But if there was some way that she could let her know that things were good...
Not anymore. While this happened in my sleep, it was not a dream. It was different, totally unexpected, totally unlike anything I've ever experienced and 100% true.
Pretty cool, right?